In the life of Becky

This article was posted a few days ago and I stumbled across it on my newsfeed. It took me by surprise- with a lot of thought while I was sitting at the airport reading all of these ridiculous assumptions and generalizations I realized that truly there is the evil of division in the church. And if you try to ask questions or go deeper into the meanings of things you will get labeled a "progressive" that will immediately spark an influence of a debate culture. We aren't straying away from God- we're just letting you know we aren't seeing God in you. Here is the article- https://www.crosswalk.com/slideshows/5-signs-your-church-might-be-heading-toward-progressive-christianity.html?utm_content=bufferd5d64&utm_medium=fbpage&utm_source=bstpg&utm_campaign=cdupdate&fbclid=IwAR0Y1Pwd8_gq3W4iVgnK_Q8WTE0FE3Np6lRZAqfN5Ew1zCn6E1VQZbKQjPA Here are my thoughts, Is it progressive christianity? Or is it a cleansing of translations that have been masked...

Social Media. I have had a TON of confusing scenarios in my life the last three weeks. Mostly between me really wanting to find out what it is that I want in friendships, relationships, work, and over all life. And I was having a really hard time because I was never giving my heart the attention it really needed to make these decisions into life realities and not just Facebook status's of feelings that 26 letters in an alphabet couldn't possibly try and explain to those who really don't care anyways. On October 31st, 2016 I thought to myself... there is so much more to life than literally checking my Facebook, instagram, twitter, and snap chat every waking minute. So I said, alright 72 hours, Becky, 72 hours you are on break. I'm always noticing the teens around me stuck to their phone and all while I can keep saying they are addicted and can't live with out it,, I had to question myself in this endeavor. Because, am I the hypocrit? And to be any kind of L...

Life may have changed from grabbing a smoothie and an avocado for dinner to making sure there is a balanced meal on the table with no carrots but thats not to say it's anything less than magical. On March 30th, I lost one of my best friends. And although we had our struggles during her illness, she left me the most precious gift someone could ever give to someone. She left me her daughter. At the time, I was 22 years old and still quite frankly finding myself. I laugh when people say that some day you actually do find yourself, I hear 63 year olds still talking about figuring out who they are. But regardless, I was fresh into the world of pretending to be an adult and pretending to know all the right answers. I spent a solid 3 days crying in my room, this was unlike me but so like me all at the same time. There were a lot of different factors that I wouldn't benefit from, there was no assistance for this situation without lots of legal fees. There was a large gap and lack of ...

That little side story keeps popping up on all of my social medias. The one that has all these famous and successful people's names and then it has the ages that they failed at something pretty enormous in their life. It always kind of makes me chuckle. We are all so bent on success. Which isn't a bad thing. But here I am rounding 23, and if you asked me 3 weeks ago how I felt about life... I was pretty tired with absolutely no idea what was to  come of it. 22. Twenty two for Becky Trout was one heck of a whirlwind. I went from feeling like I was some what invincible and a bit numb to some feelings. To literally feeling every emotion possible in my 22nd year. I'd hate to say that I learned the most at 22 but I certainly gained whole new perspectives on everything in life. I started 22 with one plan, and I'm ending a world away from that original outlook on life. I love when people acknowledge my age, I used to hate it. This year took me to so many different new rela...

It's been a week since I've made my way home back to Cleveland, Ohio. On March 5th I began my travels to Liberia, Africa for the first time. Truthfully, I can't say I had much of any thought going into the trip. As everyone would say, time came and went so quickly leading up to the trip. Even leading up to getting on the plane to go, it never really felt real. The first night in Liberia is a bit of a blur, I was so deliriously tired that the only thing I remember is waking up in the middle of the night with my nose ring caught on the Mosquito net feeling confused as to why I was stuck.  The first day in Monrovia set the stage for how the rest of the trip was going to feel. The hospitality of the Liberian people surpasses anything I've ever experienced. Honestly speaking I don't ever remember having a thought remembering I was white.... which obviously stuck out among the natives. For complete strangers to treat us like royalty it was a confusing feeling. ...

Sometimes I have to sit back and think, Becky, God's totally got you. Which ultimately means, you got this killa. But often I have to remind myself of how awesome life really is and how the learning process in your early twenties is possibly just the beginning of the best journey of the rest of your life. These are some things I have to remind myself all the time. 1. Don't let anyone try and tell you that you aren't killing the game. You paid your bills this month, you cooked an actual meal more than once, and you can afford to treat yourself to coffee.. You are well dressed, well spoken, and beautiful. Stop stressing over the big stuff. Drive that crappy car, go to work with a smile, and live this life. Since when did we begin to measure success by what we have and not how we feel in the moments we are drenched in around us. 2. Keep your #Squad close Squads come and go, but the ones that have been there loyal from the start of your emotional downfalls and the ones ...

It's one beautiful day in North East Ohio. Our colors are at their peak of fall and it's one of the most refreshing sights to see before we sink into the depths of a cold winter. This time of the year is typically my favorite time because it's usually a time of reflections and preparation. This year has been a bit different for me. People ever since I moved into a role of really, full time ministry, have always reminded me to make sure I don't "burn out". I heard it over and over again from so many people that have been in similar positions of feeling burnt out, worn out, or just mentally exhausted. I always thought to myself, that couldn't be me ever. How could I possibly get to the point of being done with something that I love so much. Of course, I've had dozens if not hundreds of days ending exhausted to get up the next day and do it all over again, but that's life. This last  year was more of a whirlwind that anything. I went from thinkin...

These usually are for my own personal healing and expression. But who knows, maybe there is another like me.. Finding myself in a really good place before the start of Summer. Growing and experiencing more after moving and learning more and more into my early twenties. Hitting a new low that hasn't been identified in my realm of feelings. Trying to name and put into words the oppression. That I am always putting myself in a "in or out" type of mentality. Either I'm not giving enough of myself into my job and considering myself selfish, or I'm giving too much of myself where I find myself lost. We've all heard the endless lines of how good judgement comes from experience and experience comes from poor judgement. For me, it was one of those weird lines to cross. My poor judgement wasn't ever all that much of mine. I learned more of experience from watching the judgement of others around me and grew off of that. But from that, I found myself bottled up an...

It's January 18th, 2015... 18 days into January and half way through my twenty first year on earth and it's already been something for the books. I can always look back in my years and see what kind of phases I've been in and what things certainly irked me to thrive in a different passion or put someone or something behind me. Lately, I have been looking a lot into my relationships of different forms and a lot on how this generation communicates. My job entails me to work with many different people of all different ages, ethnicity, culture, shapes, sizes, and backgrounds. This has caused me to deeply search within myself how I can best be a resource to them for the work of the Kingdom. It's not easy and often draining even frustrating. Since I've found myself in this new found phase of almost disgust, anytime I like to make an assumption and sometimes conclusion about other people or society in a whole, I am certainly sure to check myself first. What I am seeing thr...

I sit here this morning, the day before Thanksgiving.  Thanksgiving was actually a time that was actually created after some dark historical roots of pilgrimage. Now I obviously don't boast in the reasons why Thanksgiving was created, however I do myself enjoy giving back thanks for the things in my life that God has provided and put his provision over. I bring this reason up because as I sit here looking at my Facebook news-feed or if I turn on the news I am hit in the face and in the gut with a panoramic view of a complete and utter display of a broken world. I sit and gasp at the horror of the things going on around us and the people it is affecting. In every acting party involved in the current of events that are taking place closely to home we all have something to be upset about. I am not here to speak on those behalves, but I do want to ask what part you are playing a role in? In all curiosity, I find the most interesting thing that the one thing we preach is unity but in ...

So about a month ago my father, Dave Trout, challenged me to read Psalm 119 everyday for I think like the next three months. Taking on the challenge primarily because it was my dad who challenged me, I obviously couldn't let him show me up. But with great humbleness I have to say life, gangs, Liberians, and food poisoning did get in the way of me keeping up with my challenge. However, I did find times to read it and all 176 verses challenged me a little bit more. I found myself reading through this chapter and being convicted but yet calmed. See this summer was long and awesome. But I can tell you there were so many times I was trying so hard to keep my encouragement up in Christ. When you are swarmed with people in poverty stricken areas, with relationships, expectations, and the weights of the world its easy to loose track of who God is and how we should worship Him not on our situation, but because He is. Psalm 119 really takes you on a realization of why it's the longest ...

I've been lacking in motivation for the concept of what to write about. I've been up and down the last couple of weeks in my happiness but my joy for the current moment and for the future has remained at a high. Ever find that you get your inspiration when in the shower? I wish I could remember all of the ideas I come up with in the shower, something about the water clearing space in your head. Ok, back on track. So what is your perspective of heaven? As it is described in Revelation 21:9-27, it gives a pretty illustrated detail which I love. One in particular;  " The main street of the City was pure gold, translucent as glass. But there was no sign of a Temple, for the Lord God—the Sovereign-Strong—and the Lamb are the Temple. The City doesn’t need sun or moon for light. God’s Glory is its light, the Lamb its lamp! The nations will walk in its light and earth’s kings bring in their splendor. Its gates will never be shut by day, and there won’t be any night. They’ll br...

HELLO APRIL! What an interesting month it's been with weather almost up to 80 degrees two days ago and snow today with frigid air! I've been preparing for my upcoming summer season at the Nehemiah Mission with planning VBS, devotional content, outreach events, and neighborhood youth programming. I took a step back before diving into an abyss of planning and decided to jump back into the story of Nehemiah. It's a book of the old testament that gets overlooked quite frequently because it is quite small. However, it is most definitely

Ever find that things often get lost in translation ? I mean even through our society of texting and emails we can never really get the full extent of what someone is trying to portray. Or even the he said she said type of run around where things completely get twisted and turned. I played a game with the Sunday school class whisper down the lane and the sentence given was "The big pink giraffe was eating the leaves" and what came back was "Bugs pick at giraffes eating the trees". I mean it was kind of close right? It has me reflecting a lot about what comes back around to us and sometimes we miss the whole meaning right there in front of us. Working with people that don't necessarily speak English, in fact its called Liberian English there has been many conversations where I hear one thing and it is completely opposite. And well, if you don't exactly know what Liberian English sounds like, it's a lot like holding your tongue and speaking. At least th...

Merry Christmas to all you beautiful souls! And of course a Happy New Year!  Hello! I've had one of the best couple months of my life! I feel like I'm really beginning to let go a lot of past grief and clinging to Christ. I had the opportunity to go to a Backstreet Boys and Gavin Degraw concert which was an absolute amazing night that I needed to feel like a little kid again! I've also been taking on more responsibilities at the mission and got two new roommates! YAY for not loosing sleep for living alone anymore! My dad is on a mission trip in Bolivia and to say he's loving it too much would be an understatement. It's been a long month not having him even just 2 hours away but now 6,000 miles away, however I am so ecstatic that he is living out his calling. I was in a minor car accident for the first time ever and of course was the first night my dad left the country! What an appreciation that gave me for him!!! No worries, everything is all good! OK! On to the n...