In the life of Becky

Sometimes I have to sit back and think, Becky, God's totally got you. Which ultimately means, you got this killa. But often I have to remind myself of how awesome life really is and how the learning process in your early twenties is possibly just the beginning of the best journey of the rest of your life. These are some things I have to remind myself all the time. 1. Don't let anyone try and tell you that you aren't killing the game. You paid your bills this month, you cooked an actual meal more than once, and you can afford to treat yourself to coffee.. You are well dressed, well spoken, and beautiful. Stop stressing over the big stuff. Drive that crappy car, go to work with a smile, and live this life. Since when did we begin to measure success by what we have and not how we feel in the moments we are drenched in around us. 2. Keep your #Squad close Squads come and go, but the ones that have been there loyal from the start of your emotional downfalls and the ones ...

It's one beautiful day in North East Ohio. Our colors are at their peak of fall and it's one of the most refreshing sights to see before we sink into the depths of a cold winter. This time of the year is typically my favorite time because it's usually a time of reflections and preparation. This year has been a bit different for me. People ever since I moved into a role of really, full time ministry, have always reminded me to make sure I don't "burn out". I heard it over and over again from so many people that have been in similar positions of feeling burnt out, worn out, or just mentally exhausted. I always thought to myself, that couldn't be me ever. How could I possibly get to the point of being done with something that I love so much. Of course, I've had dozens if not hundreds of days ending exhausted to get up the next day and do it all over again, but that's life. This last  year was more of a whirlwind that anything. I went from thinkin...

These usually are for my own personal healing and expression. But who knows, maybe there is another like me.. Finding myself in a really good place before the start of Summer. Growing and experiencing more after moving and learning more and more into my early twenties. Hitting a new low that hasn't been identified in my realm of feelings. Trying to name and put into words the oppression. That I am always putting myself in a "in or out" type of mentality. Either I'm not giving enough of myself into my job and considering myself selfish, or I'm giving too much of myself where I find myself lost. We've all heard the endless lines of how good judgement comes from experience and experience comes from poor judgement. For me, it was one of those weird lines to cross. My poor judgement wasn't ever all that much of mine. I learned more of experience from watching the judgement of others around me and grew off of that. But from that, I found myself bottled up an...

It's January 18th, 2015... 18 days into January and half way through my twenty first year on earth and it's already been something for the books. I can always look back in my years and see what kind of phases I've been in and what things certainly irked me to thrive in a different passion or put someone or something behind me. Lately, I have been looking a lot into my relationships of different forms and a lot on how this generation communicates. My job entails me to work with many different people of all different ages, ethnicity, culture, shapes, sizes, and backgrounds. This has caused me to deeply search within myself how I can best be a resource to them for the work of the Kingdom. It's not easy and often draining even frustrating. Since I've found myself in this new found phase of almost disgust, anytime I like to make an assumption and sometimes conclusion about other people or society in a whole, I am certainly sure to check myself first. What I am seeing thr...